You > Mistake > Failure #2 (Perspective)
Putting crazy pressure on myself didn't do any good. Hiding away all the stress and emotional breakdowns did more harm than expected.
To sum up all my thoughts, I'm glad I went through not-so-great experiences in my life thus far.
Internally, I felt that I wasn't ready for high school because I didn't want to go through the unexpected loneliness. Putting myself in a new environment was tough when making new friends was the most difficult part. I wanted to go back to playing basketball during lunch break with all my buddies. I wanted to travel back in time and set my eighth grade year on replay.
Externally, I always wanted to be in the mix of trends. If I saw my peers wearing the coolest clothes or the "hypebeast" shoes, I wanted to follow in their footsteps. Learning what popularity in high school meant was kind of a shocking lesson. I though if you were popular, you could make friends easily. If you weren't popular, nobody would want to talk to you.
Then there came the biggest pressure of them all.
If I couldn't get straight A's on my report card, then I would fail my parents' expectations for me. Seeing them working their butts off, just so I could make a name for myself, motivated me so much to the point where I overthought all of the possible roads that my mistakes could take me to.
A bigger goal and mindset was settled in the end.
I've learned that having perspective means you try to understand the person next to you. If my parents were tough on me, I knew they did it out of kindness and with a big heart. If someone were to bully me, I knew they weren't having a great day at that time. If I didn't receive a high score on an assignment or test, I knew I could do better because my teachers want the best for me.
... There will always be a friend anywhere around you. Make the time to meet them and appreciate for who they are. After all, friends are one of the people in your life who you love and care for.
"not I wish I wish I wish but I did I try" -- Zulu Elumogo
To sum up all my thoughts, I'm glad I went through not-so-great experiences in my life thus far.
Internally, I felt that I wasn't ready for high school because I didn't want to go through the unexpected loneliness. Putting myself in a new environment was tough when making new friends was the most difficult part. I wanted to go back to playing basketball during lunch break with all my buddies. I wanted to travel back in time and set my eighth grade year on replay.
Externally, I always wanted to be in the mix of trends. If I saw my peers wearing the coolest clothes or the "hypebeast" shoes, I wanted to follow in their footsteps. Learning what popularity in high school meant was kind of a shocking lesson. I though if you were popular, you could make friends easily. If you weren't popular, nobody would want to talk to you.
Then there came the biggest pressure of them all.
If I couldn't get straight A's on my report card, then I would fail my parents' expectations for me. Seeing them working their butts off, just so I could make a name for myself, motivated me so much to the point where I overthought all of the possible roads that my mistakes could take me to.
A bigger goal and mindset was settled in the end.
I've learned that having perspective means you try to understand the person next to you. If my parents were tough on me, I knew they did it out of kindness and with a big heart. If someone were to bully me, I knew they weren't having a great day at that time. If I didn't receive a high score on an assignment or test, I knew I could do better because my teachers want the best for me.
... There will always be a friend anywhere around you. Make the time to meet them and appreciate for who they are. After all, friends are one of the people in your life who you love and care for.
"not I wish I wish I wish but I did I try" -- Zulu Elumogo
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